Looked back and comparing

I don't want to look back and say "How I miss those days" or "I could have done something." You know , those words.. I don't really like it..

Because this was really close... Now I felt the gap has widen.. And it will continue..

And I prefer if things were growing rather than swinging lo..Don't really like ups and down... Relationships should be like that meh..? Kinda hate it...

Sigh... Felt like last time was better... If I'm more like her then it shouldn't be a problem , I guess.. Sigh..